you know what I need

I'll start this one with an apology for my inactivity recently. The past few weeks have been crazy and jam packed with different tasks, sessions, and ministry opportunities in preparation to leave the country this weekend. 

That's the other thing, my squad and I fly out THIS WEEKEND!!! By 11:30 Saturday night we will be living in Guatemala & I seriously can't wait. Our time in the states has been such a beautiful and fruitful season. Everyday brought a new challenge and a new blessing. If you would've asked me what my expectations for the Race were a month and a half ago were I would miss every mark on what my life would look like. Nonetheless the Lord has provided in every way imaginable. I've wrestled with my own heart for almost 50 days now, constantly in a back and forth with incomparable joy and deep sadness and uncertainty. Humans are so fond of comfortable and consistent and stepping out of those things has been difficult and I've been forced to rely on the Lord. The best part of what feels like walking out on a plank with the hope that someone grabs your hand before you fall is that the Lord will always catch us. And not just catch us, but turn around and bless us with more than we could ever imagine. Learning to trust that the Lord will provide is not easy and I walk in that growth with Him daily. Early on in my time in Georgia I was exposed to a lot of aspects of Christianity that I hadn't experienced yet and for some reason anytime things felt crazy I would be in the midst of prayer and turn and look at one girl on K Squad and automatically feel more comfortable. Just a few days ago she and I were hiking together and she looked at me and said "Grace during that time I would always look at you and be reminded that I wasn't alone in how I was feeling". I think that's such a beautiful example of how the Lord provided a reminder for both of us that we had someone who was in the same boat and who could relate to our feelings. I've constantly been reminded of His provision over the past few weeks, in big things and small ones. We serve a faithful God and even when are unfaithful He provides for us! What a gift that is! Even on the days I feel so alone and like nothing can go right He reminds me that He'll never let me down. I can't wait to see how He continues to show up in ways that I can't even fathom with my simple human brain. 

Thank you thank you thank you for continued prayers and love, it makes everyday easier knowing there are so many people at home supporting me. Please pray for my squad and the 2 others that are launching this weekend & pray for the people we will encounter and places we will go as we head out into the world! & Shoot me a text if you wanna know more about what life has looked like recently, I would love to talk! 

All my love & gratitude,